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i skiped my english class today!!!

reason?

well, i've got to tell you yhe truth dont i?
the reason was simple as sleepin without brushing ur teeth!!

lazy!!!! that right u'm lazy, i know it's sound stupid, but giv me a break!!
i've been doing this for almost 2 years yeahh! two years straight without skippin

sound amazing isn't it???

yeah yeah i know i'm bad, skippin class is not good
i'll try not to do it again, okay?? i said i'll try : )

cant wait to go out for the journey
this is hugeee for me, for the first time in my life(i guess)that i'm going to go out by my self, dont no where but just go , crazy isn't it???


a bit scare, but not as much as the excitement that i have

i've been thinkin, that if i'm a better writer i would.... u know write something down like a "jam small pocket book journey super crazy train riddin" isn't it too long for the Title of my pocket book? like i'd said i'm not such a good writer nor story teller :( wish i have those gift

but u see i have somekind of a seeing which appeared to be moving story, which is ....i dont know how to explain, but when i see things i tend to remember it and process it in my tiny lill brain

and then when my brain is not doing anything or lazy doing things that i suppose to, i let my mind out and let it flow ..... and then POPSS! here comes another short film in my head!!!

hahaha
it's like Alise in Wonderland i guess

wish that i'm a better writer ^ ^

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for me it's hard to do something regularly

like wake up early in the morning..

or

eat in a certain time

or easy as

updating my blog!!!!!

i am enjoying my lazy, sleep in life hahaha

however, i still study though! not as hard as usual, but still ... put somthing in my brain :)
i've realized that study is good, but when you threw away all your normal life and just study, i dont think this is the case!!!

how should i say????

i mean, it's important to study hard and get good grade, especially in my case that having good grades is going to makes my path easier, i guess??

but still, what the point of having good grades but have no life???
i cant say for sure that my life right now is the life that i appreciated, but still it is the life that i'm living!!! and i have to make it appreciable in the future...

so, deal with it!!!!jam

i'm back!!!

-*-

like i'd said i'm back

and the break was over -*- suckss

I just watch 500with summer yesterday
it's meant to b something for me to watch this movie

the question is why???
why ??

the movie was good though, i like it, especially the sound tracks, lov'em a lotttt!!!!

it's kinda made me realize something some how???
but i just dont know what exactly that i realized??
but deep down i kinda know!!!!

today, no, i mean 5 minutes ago, i saw something that could brakes my heart....
but it doesnt??? or it does, but i just dont felt it

if it was month or two month or three month ago, what i saw today definitely gonna kill me some how, NOT literally though !!!!!!!!

but today, right now it doesnt......
i feel nothing...... i dont feel it at all. is my feeling gone dead???? or is it my heart that numbs????
or i just pretended that i'm fine????


......

but


i guess that i just realize how to deal with it, or maybe i guess that i just gone crazyyy
i dont know??

but if u ask me what is my feelling??

i would say that i'm still...........

it is easy to forget something
but it is hard to forget someone, especially whom u had special feeling....

so, you know what, i'm not gonna try to forget it
i'm just gonna live with it

and one day

one day


i'm pretty much sure that i'll be fine.....^^

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^ ^
finally, finally, finally..................
it's done!!!!

my essay is done ;) it's took me 8 days 555
the reason it took me so long is.......because i'm super power lazy... : )

i'm such a lazy lately?!!))$)!$*)_!*$_

dont know why, dont know how... too bored i guess??

but, any way it's done and i feel good hahahahaha

still have iconography analysis paper for art history class to do though :( suckkkkkkk
and math and video project and poster and math online HW and ...... don t even knowww

dont want to think about it

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guess what!!!????

i haven't slept for almost 2days know, isnt it exciting at all???

the last time i slept was two days ago!!!! and know i'm still up

i feel very blur and tired and sleeppy hahaha

but i'm planing to go to bed soon today, i kind of miss it already :)

ps. still working on my English essay papers, who know it might finish sooooon!!!!!!

sleeping in french class

i miss it ;(

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i guess, i skiped one day!!!

actually not, cause i didnt have a chance to go to bed yet, so, for me today is still yesterday hahaha.

same as the past 6 days of my spring break, i'm still stuck with my homework and have no clue when i'm gonna finish it???;(

it's been a boring week so far, no, actually i have to say, it's been a boring life hahaha

i guess my life if kind of crazy since we moved here, but yeah, like i said, crazy but bored, so DAMN boredddd.

if it could kill me, it already succeed.....

fuke it!!!!!

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same as yesterday ;(

it's been another boring day....

i have to get fucus on my homework know, truly deeply lazy for the last 5days of break.

damn it!!!! how can they call this a break???? this is BS.......

5 more day to go and have not done any thing yet!!!

crazyy isnt it??

i know i'm crazy : )

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nothing much for today, slept till 4.30pm, up n went to work at the restaurant.

like i said nothing much, just hanging in there!!!

ps.i'm planing to do my english homework tonight, and go to bed in the morning, then wake up n go to work 4.30pm ;( sucks isnt it???

for fon, who told me to update myblog

this is for you my lil friend. i'll try to be more update and more hi-tech from now on ^ ^.

i guess?!!?!?! i dont know how long i'm gonna stay put though?? you know me i'm a kind of person who cant stay put, right??

but i guess you're right about this, i think i start to like it(isnt it fast?) hahaha
we'll see how long this blog gonna stay update^ ^

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